Balance
Something I have never quite been able to grasp is how to not be a pushover, but at the same time, not be a passive aggressive needy girl.
Ever since I can remember, I’ve let people walk all over me. The fact that I not only know this, but openly accept it, is sort of pathetic, but I digress. Anyway, in recent years, I’ve become more assertive and less of a pushover, but in doing so, I’ve noticed I started becoming whiny and clingy and overall, a typical girl.
So annoying.
So I started pulling back on that attitude and ended up sort of shifting over to the pushover mentality again.
Here’s an example. Lets say I want to hang out with a friend of mine. We haven’t seen each other in a while, and I really want to see him, but he’s being lazy and doesn’t want to make the effort to see me. My heart is annoyed and am wondering if it’s even worth it, but my brain just thinks, “calm the eff down, it’s not the end of the world. You’ll see him another day. One day isn’t going to make a difference.”
I’ve been listening to my brain for the past few months now. My anti-romantic, cynical mindset tells me this is the right, mature thing to do. But is there a certain point where it’s not just cynicism anymore, but it’s downright carelessness? Is my lack of initiation with my relationships being viewed at as me just not even caring about these relationships anymore?
I don’t want to be a bitch, but I don’t want to be apathetic. I can’t seem to find that balance.
Posted September 18, 2011 at 7:25pm in Balance Friends Relationships Me Life Random Personal
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![Tonight I reunited with three of my best friends in the Chapman PR/A department, otherwise known as my BATEMAN teammates :)
Us four, in addition to Maria, who couldn’t make it tonight, spent countless days, nights, weeks and months together in the spring of 2010. When we finished our campaign for the US Census, we knew our friendship was something special—a bond that can’t be replicated anywhere else.
These kids just get it. We can talk about PR, social media, Chapman, local/national issues with no reserves. Our dinner lasted almost two and a half hours, and that’s just because we all had so much to talk about and so much to catch up on!
I really hope I can see them all again really soon. Our time together may be limited as of late, but when we get together…it’s like nothing ever changed. Hell, I wouldn’t mind doing an entirely new campaign with them again; our team dynamic was incredible!
[I stole the picture from Travis/Philia—sorry guys, hope you don’t mind! :) ]](http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lr6thddcF01qao14ao1_1280.jpg)
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Tonight I reunited with three of my best friends in the Chapman PR/A department, otherwise known as my BATEMAN teammates :)
Us four, in addition to Maria, who couldn’t make it tonight, spent countless days, nights, weeks and months together in the spring of 2010. When we finished our campaign for the US Census, we knew our friendship was something special—a bond that can’t be replicated anywhere else.
These kids just get it. We can talk about PR, social media, Chapman, local/national issues with no reserves. Our dinner lasted almost two and a half hours, and that’s just because we all had so much to talk about and so much to catch up on!
I really hope I can see them all again really soon. Our time together may be limited as of late, but when we get together…it’s like nothing ever changed. Hell, I wouldn’t mind doing an entirely new campaign with them again; our team dynamic was incredible!
[I stole the picture from Travis/Philia—sorry guys, hope you don’t mind! :) ]
Had some dranks tonight at Fridays with Amie, Wanita and Eric. About to watch Misfits and head to sleep. :)
I think I’ll take a pause on life and go to California tomorrow with @erickimberlin!
I second that motion. Meet me at Sea-Tac airport, tomorrow morning at 10:00am?!
Meet you guys at Long Beach Airport in about four hours!
(Source: skeetr)
I’m not Joey. Don’t you dare call me Joey. The papers say I’m finished, so don’t call me fucking Joey. I want to leave that all behind. I’m moving on. I’m not Joey. For the last time. I’m not fucking Joey. It’s Matt. Matt LeBlanc. Joey’s in the past. I’m trying to do something new.
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Matt LeBlanc, AKA Joey, ranting at a Mirror reporter after being asked “You all right, Joey? How YOU do-in?”
(via thedailywhat)
Wow, so you’re not Joey?
(Source: popeater.com, via thedailywhat)
Today I hung out with some friends whom I have not seen in a while…and it was great! I drove out to Manhattan Beach to meet up with Aaron and Kei to eat at Hakata Ramen, which was great and a nice venture for me to take, food-wise. Then we went to Aaron’s house which is unbelievably nice. We took a stroll down to the actual beach itself, then stopped by Coffee Bean to get some iced blended drinks (sorry, Starbucks, these kill frappuccinos) and then went over to Redondo Beach to eat at Pacific Fish Center & Restaurant…and had some amazing fresh crab! Thanks to Aaron’s mom for spotting us :)
It’s always nice reconnecting with old friends, especially down here in California, where I don’t often see people from home. I’m glad I got to see these two and spent the entire day with them! We caught up on so many different topics, and they got me really excited about life after college and the fact that a lot of our careers (not just us three, but all of our friends back home as well) could possibly overlap and benefit each other. Yay for being grown-ups!
So…now back to watching LOST…
Posted September 6, 2010 at 8:36pm in Friends California Redondo Beach Manhattan Beach Coffee Bean Pacific Fish Center & Restaurant Hakata Ramen
